fuck people.i'm done with them all.why is it when you're trying to be so  nice and caring  as much as you can, the only thing you get is being treated like nothing,fucking nonsense.why is it when someone is actually doing this to you,you can't notice it like suddenly you become blind or you just turn on your '' i don't give a fuck about you all  '' thingy and then the ones that are really nice gets hurt.Gets hurt as well as you,because that means that their point of view about you becomes negative and they assume that you're another piece of shit that doesn't value other people feelings.but that's so not true and it's fucking unfair,the wrong impression about you to other people  is very easy to get.you just need to feel miserable and angry on the whole world and that's it.and when it passes away you realize that maybe  you've just lost some really great people  and then you start to  feel even more shitty and miserable.this is pretty much how my whole relationships with people goes, and the worst fact is that you can't do nothing about it.Because you just can't avoid depression  and bad mood in your life.So what I've decide, the only way to stay calm is to forget it and don't ever put effort into any relationships with people.it's worthless.if it's meant to be it'll happen.you want it or not.The ones that are really  meant to be in your life will come in a right time.and if it's meant to,they'll stay.Let it  go with the flow, don't give a shit and don't try to do something because it'll be worthless and it will make you feel even  worse about everything.Maybe this sounds like giving up,maybe it is,maybe it looks like I let the fate to do everything,but for now I've decided it's the best for me,although  I'm still not sure If I am really tired of everything  or just a weak person.Probably the second one.